It's Just One of Those Days

I love Pandora because it opens me up to more and more good music. Joy William's "One of those days" came on while I was working on my graphic design homework last night and I pretty much fell in love with it. We've all experienced what she's talking about. It's pretty annoying when that happens because anything that could go wrong, will. Well honestly, it's been one of those weekends really. Everything has just been building up and breaking down so much lately that I'm wondering when it will subside.

Truthfully, I feel a little guilty because really my problems are nothing compared to others problems, but you know what? They're still hurtful and upsetting to me and I deserve a little comfort and time too. Like I've said in previous posts though, it's hard for me to open up to people and trust them and this weekend just kind of proved it more. I do appreciate that there are other people that feel the same way as I do though, makes me feel a little less alone.

Basically, I'm going to open up about one of those things online (not that I only told 2 people in person though but you know whatever it's probably only those two people that are even reading these blogs anyway). So my brother has been in the Marines for a few years, and people are surprised when I tell them he hasn't been deployed yet. But, he's had some back problems since right after boot camp. He's now had 2 surgeries on his back (yes, the military fucked up and did the wrong part of his spine the first time. ridiculous). He's finally back on the road to recovery. Yesterday he got news that his unit will officially be deployed at the end of the year December/ January.

I'm very proud of my brother and the accomplishments he has made while in the Marines and I'm proud that he his so happy to serve his company by being deployed to Afghanistan. I can honestly say that I'm still scared shit-less of him going, though. He'll be in a part of the country that hasn't seen action in 3 years and the guys in his unit have been there on a tour before and said it wasn't that terrible. He'll only be there for 7 months and he'll actually be 9-10 months out from active duty when he gets back. Really, this is a pretty good situation for a Marine and he should be OK, everything should go fine. So, if you see me being more quiet than usual lately, or it looks like I'm having a not so great day maybe you'll understand a little bit more why.