Sunday, November 7, 2010

It May Be Years Until the Day My Dreams Will Match Up With My Pay

Feist is pretty much my favorite to listen to when it gets close to the Christmas season. I can't really explain it but she just gives me that feeling. So now that it's after Halloween it's more appropriate to listen to Christmas-like music. This one is from her album Let it Die, a song called "Mushaboom" the first song I ever heard by her because I heard Conor Oberst's cover of it.

Well now that I'm freaking out about graduation and having a career, I find this song to be very fitting. I have a lot of big dreams for my life, and I feel like lately I've been really living out of my means. It didn't really hit me until last year, going in to Junior year of college that I realized HOW MUCH debt I was already in. Yes, it was the better decision to go to an extremely expensive Liberal Arts school instead of a state school and it is still a better option. But, part of me wishes that I would have done community college and gotten an associate's degree until I could pay for my education.

I know it will be worth it when I finally land a position because of the connections I have made here, but I'm still nervous as hell that it won't be for a very long time. I know I've been able to do A LOT of things through this school and I am so thankful for those things. I should just appreciate what I've been dealt with and take the debt as it comes. Maybe one day I will actually be able to travel to New Zealand with my best friend to see a girl that after two weeks, I felt like I knew better than most people in my life. It may not be a year after I graduate from undergrad but maybe sometime in the future. Here's to hoping that at least this dream will come true.

1 comment:

  1. ooh ooh, that's me!
    but really what i was going to say is that i'm glad someone else has christmas-like music they listen to. for me, it's ingrid michaelson, alicia keys, and joshua radin. :)

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